Imagine yourself at the end of your life. What sort of legacy will you leave? Describe the lasting effect you want to have on the world.
Well, can I first tell you how I don't want to be remembered?
I don't want to be remembered as the independent (in my case, read that as "self-focused") young woman I was. I don't want to be remembered as the one who made decisions without regard to how it would affect anyone else. People who knew me only B.C. (Before Christ) wouldn't recognize me now. For as the apostle Paul wrote to the church at Corinth,
... [If] anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come. (2 Corinthians 5:17, ESV)I am not that person anymore.
I'd like to be remembered for the second half (Lord willing) of my life. As a woman who finally listened to God calling her to Him, who first recognized the ways that He guarded her even as she rebelled against Him, who learned to allow Him to transform her into His servant.
I'd like to be remembered as someone who showed the love of Christ in every setting--not only to my church family but also in the rest of my environment. Someone who showed compassion to "the least of these" (Matthew 25:37-40). Someone who freely gave of her resources to serve the Lord. Someone who didn't do things halfheartedly or halfway.
I'd like to be remembered as someone who leaned into the Lord during times of trouble--through cancer diagnosis and treatment, through years of depression. Someone who was abundantly thankful for the people He sent to help her through those times. Someone who tried to use those experiences to encourage others.
I'd like to be remembered as a woman who allowed God to stretch her far beyond her comfort zone. Someone who was naturally quiet and introverted, but--through the power of God--learned to write openly on this blog about personal subjects, to approach new people, to lead a small group, and to contribute in a larger group.
Later this month I'm going to speak to a class. Believe me, even I was surprised when I heard myself say Yes! The topic I'll speak on is my testimony. I can't tell anyone why he should believe in Jesus. All I can share is my version of
I was blind but now I see! (John 9:25b)God has opened my eyes to all that He can empower me to do. He has opened my eyes to the joy of serving Him. He has poured out His mercy and love and grace on me, and all I can do is allow that to overflow into the lives of people around me.
None of this is my doing: it's God working through me. All I've done is say Yes.
How would you like to be remembered?
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