Thursday, October 9, 2014

When It's Hard to Join - 31 Days

By now you know all about the 31 Days of Five Minute Free Writes, so I'll just get to it.  Today the writing prompt is JOIN.  I'm going to begin where I left off yesterday, when I told you about my public speaking experience.


A couple of years later, that teacher would write in my yearbook:  "I will look for your name in print."  She knew I loved to write, but I don't think she held out much hope for my future in public speaking.  And, as an aside, in the early 1980's, I doubt that she'd expect my name to be on a computer screen and accessible worldwide.

Anyway, even now I'm hesitant to join in a group discussion.  In a group of six or eight, maybe.  More than that, no way.  I think because I'm afraid of being wrong, I don't want to speak up.  (I've written before about that fear of being wrong, so I won't go into it here.)

When my Bible study or small group prays together, I sit there in silence.  In my head I know what I'd say, I've thought out the wording, and I'm hearing a small voice telling me, Say it!  But generally I wait so long that the opportunity passes.

Even in an informal, just hanging out, kind of conversation, I'm almost always the quietest one.  One on one, I'm fine.  In a group, I never seem to find an opportunity to speak up.

But give me a keyboard, or pen and paper, and I'll write all day!


face/table photo credit: Lili Vieira de Carvalho via photopin cc


  1. I love to talk... but not in front of people... then I get nervous.

  2. I think everyone has something they haven't conquered but on the other hand they have an opposing gift that trumps. ☺

    I'm not that great at public speaking. I had learned to curb my anxiety over it, but that was long ago. So you're in good company. Haha. I too prefer to write it or be in a one-on-one conversation.


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