I kept going back to Psalm 77, which is the one I mentioned last week. I was leaving my Bible open to that page so I could find it as quickly as possible. Then one of those times I happened to come across Psalm 69, which opens this way (v. 1-3):
Over and over we see this pattern in the psalms:
"Life stinks ... but I will pray and praise God anyway, because I know He is good."Recently my pastor preached on Psalm 73, which was written by Asaph. Again, his specific problems are different from mine. But I can still learn from his example.
Asaph starts (v. 1) by stating that God is good, but then (v. 2-14) he pours out his heart about how life stinks. By verses 15-17 he recognizes that his attitude does not honor God. Instead of looking at the Now, he takes a longer view. He lists specific ways (v. 18-20) that the Lord helps with his problems.
What struck me, though, was the way he describes his frustration and anger in the past tense (v. 21-22):
When my heart was grieved
As I wrote last week, I often have a wide gap between what I feel and what I know. I am continually trying to bridge that gap, but in the storms, I am often unsuccessful. It's at those times that I most need to lean on what I know and set aside my emotions. When I can immerse myself in the Lord, He is faithful to help me do that!
I often don't know why He allows me to go through certain trials. But as someone has said, If you can't trace His hand, Trust His heart.