As you may recall, the rules for Five Minute Friday are simple: Write for five minutes, then stop. No major editing and no perfectionism allowed.
So here we go:
I remember a time when I felt as though I had nothing. I was so depressed that nothing in this world held any value whatsoever. I was finished.
So I called my pastor-friend, who's in my speed-dial. He reminded me first, "You have a family who loves you. You have a family who needs you. What would your husband do without you? What would your son do without his mom?
Okay, so that hit pretty hard.
"You have a church family who loves you. You have a ministry that's serving a lot of people."
Then he asked, "What are you going to tell Jesus, that His grace wasn't enough?"
But then he started reminding me of the promises of God. Jesus Himself said, "I am with you always, to the end of the age." Paul wrote to the Romans, "Suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope." He goes on to remind us that we've been filled with the Holy Spirit. (I'll get the exact verses and references at the end.)
So maybe I did have something. Maybe I did have a reason to go on.
At the time I could hold on only one minute at a time, sometimes one breath at a time. Those reminders gave me something to grasp, for just that one minute.
I'm happy to say that I'm not in that dark place anymore! I hope this is more encouraging than depressing, because I can attest that the darkness doesn't last forever.
Okay, the verses:
And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age. (Matthew 28:20b)
[W]e know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us. (Romans 5:3b-5)For more Five Minute Friday, click through Lisa-Jo's link at the top or bottom of this post. I hope you'll join in! It's a little bit terrifying but a lot of fun!