I didn't know the man, but I wonder if he, too, suffered from biological depression.

It's unrelated to circumstances, which can be a hard thing to understand. My husband has found me sobbing and assured me that everything is okay. "I know!"
I fight that battle on my own, too. Sometimes I know everything is okay, yet I'm driven to find a way out. Imagine being in a happy situation, yet feeling miserable. It's an awful, out-of-control feeling.
I try to lean on what I know: God is in control. I have a family and friends who love me. I hope to see my son graduate, go to college, get married, become a dad. None of that overcomes the heavy darkness. It's so frustrating that I sometimes want to throw something.
My doctor has not yet found the combination of medications that helps me. But I'm hopeful because I have an appointment with a specialist in a few weeks. I also have a source of strength in the help of my husband and a few friends. They listen to me ramble, wait while I cry, and hug me until the storm passes.
Next week, anxiety. ;)
People are too quick to judge...I pray that the specialist can give you the help you need.
ReplyDeleteI know someone who also suffers from clinical depression. I will keep you in prayer. The Lord wants us to use wisdom and I have told my friend that YES it is OK to take meds for this. It is a mental illness that you can't "see" like a physical illness but real all the same. And God gave the doctors the science and technology of medication. I will pray your docs find the right rx for you. Thanks for sharing on such an importan
ReplyDeleteoh yay! a specialist...
ReplyDeletereally hope they find the right combination to get you back on track.. so glad you have such a great support system
hugs to you