What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise
'Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
I don't understand why God is allowing me to go through cancer treatment and depression at the same time. I know He has a purpose, and usually I am able to let go by trusting in that knowledge. This time--maybe because I'm just so worn out--I feel like David:
How long, LORD? Will you forget me forever?In those times I am trying to remember something I've heard: When you don't understand the Why, go back to the Who: Who is in control. Who knows me, loves me, and watches over me. Who will bring me through this. Who hears my prayers and gives me the grace and endurance that I need.
How long will you hide your face from me? (Psalm 13:1, New International Version)
I'm trying to keep just one Why: Why should I rely on my own fragile, imperfect self when I can trust in the Almighty God of the universe?
What a beautiful post. Praying for you!!
ReplyDeleteI'm trying to keep just one Why: Why should I rely on my own fragile, imperfect self when I can trust in the Almighty God of the universe?
ReplyDeleteEasier said than done my friend. You are an inspiration and a true vision of Him!
Blessings and prayers to you.
I appreciate how openly you share your struggles! I am thankful for you and your gift of encouragement!
ReplyDeleteThe only 'Why' worth asking...
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