Father God, I'm here. Just tell me what You want me to do.I hope I'm not the only one who has, at times, finished that thought with ...but nothing too difficult or uncomfortable, please. It's a hard, hard thing to surrender my will when the Lord asks me to do something that's outside my comfort zone. As Rich Mullins wrote in Hold Me Jesus, "Surrender don’t come natural to me / I’d rather fight you for something I don’t really want than to take what you give that I need."
But I also know that trying to get out of doing what God wants us to do doesn't usually work out very well. Remember Jonah?
The Bible explains, in just three verses, how Jonah got himself into that mess:
The word of the LORD came to Jonah son of Amittai: "Go to the great city of Nineveh and preach against it, because its wickedness has come up before me."It's been summarized this way: The Lord said GO, and Jonah said NO. Today we might say, "Excuse me, but are You sure about that?"
But Jonah ran away from the LORD and headed for Tarshish. He went down to Joppa, where he found a ship bound for that port. After paying the fare, he went aboard and sailed for Tarshish to flee from the LORD.
He is sure. And, besides that, who am I to question the God of the universe when He tells me to do something?
Jonah eventually came around and went to Nineveh. He preached there and many repented. In my experience, rebellion against God never turns out well. Believe me, I have the scars to show the consequences of my rebellion and sin.
But here's something else that I've learned: God doesn't send us to do something without equipping us to do it. I'll give you an example. I'm introverted. So introverted, in fact, that I nearly failed kindergarten because the teacher thought I didn't have the social skills to move up to first grade. I've come a long way since then, but I still get anxiety over making phone calls and talking to people I don't know. But in the past month or so, as part of a ministry, I've had reason to walk up to people I'd never met and introduce myself. And you know what? I really wasn't scared. I didn't trip over my words or talk a mile a minute. This may not seem like a big deal to you, but it was for me. I can't take an ounce of credit for it. All I did was trust God to give me the words to say.
So with that confidence in my Lord, I'm working on being less like Jonah and more like this:
Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?" And I said, "Here am I. Send me!" (Isaiah 6:8)Image credit: Christian Clipart