I know, I know: it's been well over a month since I said I would be back. I have been thinking and praying about whether to continue blogging. I'd tentatively decided to stop, and I feel as though the Lord has confirmed that decision more than once. Just this morning I read a quote from Max Lucado about decisions that feel right and fill us with peace. This one does.
I'm not saying that I'll never post here again, but for now I have to take a step back to make time to follow where God is leading me. I truly appreciate all of you, especially those among you who have been so faithful and patient with me.
In Clout, Jenni Catron gives an idea that I really like:
...I created a "what's good" list every morning. It was usually no more than three to five things that were good in my life at that point, such as a project that I completed at work, a friendship that was thriving, and an opportunity that I was pursuing. This exercise allowed me to focus on what was happening in my life and where God was using my gifts and influence for good.The idea is that, instead of reciting a stale list of blessings, the same every time (family, church family, home, and so on), we focus on the gifts in what's happening right now. It's a perfect fit with Friday's Fave Five, hosted by Susanne at Living to Tell the Story. So after all of that, here's my list:
- Our Vacation Bible School took place this week, and I helped in the kitchen a few days. It was so exciting to hear 100+ children listening to the Gospel and shouting, "Follow Him!" Less importantly, we tried a new format for snack time, in which one team of campers assembled snacks for all of the campers. The kids loved it!
- Yesterday marked five years since my last day of radiation therapy. Praise God we've seen no sign that the cancer has recurred! I'll be on tamoxifen for another week or two, and then it's just follow-up visits with the survivorship doctor.
- At VBS earlier this week, I saw a woman I hadn't seen in more than a year. As we were catching up, she said, "It's so good to see you smiling!" I thank the Lord, again, that my depression is under control. She's not the first person who has said that, and I continue to be amazed at the difference that's dramatic enough for friends to comment.
- Our church has a weekly email that's similar to what I'd write in a blog post, and I have been blessed with the opportunity to contribute to it. I love that I can write when I feel inspired and not feel pressured to do it all the time. I'm thankful for my pastor who encourages me--in many ways, but specifically--to write.
- God has opened another door for me to help women grow in faith, which I believe is what He is calling me to do right now. I don't remember how the conversation started, but a friend and I were talking about discipleship for women. Within days she discovered another sister in Christ who shares that passion. The three of us met and talked about ways to do this, then decided to pray about it until the fall season kicks off in mid-September. It's an exciting opportunity, and these two women are wonderful to work alongside. I am praying for wisdom to do this in a way that glorifies the Lord!
So that's it. My indefinite sabbatical is not because things are bad, but because life is good! I have new and ongoing opportunities to serve the Lord, and I need to "lay down what's good and find what's best" (Jonny Diaz, "Breathe").
Thanks for being here, whether you've been here since the start in April 2009 or today is your first visit!